Doubts...

So far the goal of losing weight is not going too good. I think I'm not making enough time to be active and work out. However, the more important thing is I'm starting to doubt a lot off stuff that's in my life. Things that I've taken for granted. Like my family, my relationship, and school. I doubt I'll always be there for my family. I doubt that my relationship with my boyfriend will last. I doubt I will ever finish my degree. So many doubts... I feel like I'm going through a mid-life crisis. I'm rethinking everything about my life. Where I've been, where I am, and where I'm headed.

The thing that really worries me the most is my relationship. This March will be our 6th year together. We've together for so long, I think we've grown used to each other and too comfortable. There are so many things I expect out of this relationship. It's hard because you don't know if the other person expect the same thing. I feel like we're not good for each other. I mean, we love each other very much I know for sure. It's just, we're not living to our utmost potential. I know he can be so much better than where he is now. And the same goes for me. But we rely on each other too much. It's hard to think about breaking up, and I don't want to. I guess what I really want is for us to take a step back and look at where we are and what we both want in the future. It's just difficult because I'm sure all these thoughts are not going through his head like mine is right now. Feel very conflicted... What should I do?